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I want you but just not now, not right now, no. Maybe later, coz now I'm busy. I wanna take this opportunity to spend all the time in the world with her. Don't get me wrong though, I'm not ignoring you. I just need to take a break from it all and give her the low down on my life.
She's been part of me since the day I caught my first breath. She always knows what I want and my best friend. I don't have to ask for permission to spend some quality time with her but because I care, I thought I should let you know I'm not avoiding you.
She always tells me what I wanna hear and often gives me a glimpse of the future. She cares about my needs and most of all she cares about my feelings, and thus she despises anyone who steps on my toes. She, herself, is the most caring person I'll ever know. There just aint nobody better than her.
She reminds me of who I am when I'm busy trying to emulate those who think very highly of themselves. She takes me where I've never been to, but where my feet are destined to go. When I'm with her I just forget the world because it's all about me, all about me all the way.
She calms me down when I'm too hard on myself and lifts me up when I've wasted all my energy trying to impress. She's never shy to share her love.
She's a solo fish in the ocean, a fragrance emancipating from the dust. She's my guardian, my Goddes of beauty and my garden of hope;

She's me.

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What known shocks await
Those who dip in bare joepardy
What fresh tales can they tell
Of aged deeds
What warning have they not heard

What hands carry the self-injured
Who into yawning lion dived
What hyms can be produced
To heal their dripping wounds
What mercy is left for such

Chained

from the back of the mountains
she arises
through the trees
she swims
into pure air
she vanishes;
mighty rock you have swallowed her
deep in your depths i lay
scratch-free i grin
i lack a flaw

from the air above
he sprints
piercing the expanse
he advances deep and deeper he goes
mighty rock he leaves you bare
deep in your depths he reaches
shanty is a city he leaves

Lucky ram
you endure the furnace
brookes sprout on you as you lay bare on the veld

Can i vanishand build my life
by the stream, or the valley
on the summit, or the foot
of that giant tree

Release me into the wilderness
let grow tall this willow
for palms never sprout in caves.

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I'm alone in my head
I look for myself where I know I'm not
I have eloped
Why? I know not

Ma eyes are dry
The water has left
Why can't I fly?
Then I'd have long left

She's not here
This is bare
Ma head's in fear
Neither will the heart share

I'm just bored
Everything's still
Maybe I should talk to God
Then my cry He'll peel

I'm not happy

I'm not happy. I know I'm not. How can I be happy without hurting myself? Acceptance's the most perilous lie that only mounts pain. Would you blame me if I were jealous of them? I aint mad, I'm scared.
I'm not sick, and I'm sick of not being sick. I'm sick of staring, of knowing and of not having. I'm sick of living in my head. I'm sick of being sick behind a tired grin

never mind

Moody

What's with me?
I know not
What's to be done? I know not
What can I do?
write a poem.

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Murder me time
Before I murder myself
And lose me
Where my breath pleads

They have tied a dagger to my hands
Will they hear the final whistle?
Make stone my heart
And black my soul

Open wide my ears
To hear them laugh in needles
Make wide my voice
So now I can bring them

Kill me now!
Before I'm molten
By the supernova
On which I glide

Whose beggar am I?
Hasten your walk
I care not of acids
I'm ragged in present

Fly me to anticipation
And let me taste my tears
Make clear the way
And let us feast

Insanity Rules

When the time is come
It shrinks and lessens
It shuns even from the kind sun
It vanishes into a mini corner

It floats to a new world
It drinks even the last drop of pain
It obeys the rules of insanity
It vanishes into nothing

When the time is come
It never runs or hides
It never tries to fight
It vanishes into the heart of insanity

It floats in regrets
It corrects none but wrongs more
It dissolves all what's left
It vanishes into emptiness

When insanity is come
One knows not where to a haven
One submits to loss
One bows to distruction